Cannot find server

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Gotta Be Somebody -Nickelback

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my own breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough
You never know but when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

love you like a sister;
10:43 pm

Monday, January 26, 2009

WTF. being nice sucks.

and to be really random and to divert. look at this hot pic douya and i came across! 10000 times nicer than claudine porn haha!

Labels: what the hell was i doing

love you like a sister;
3:02 am

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

one thing i've learnt: never ever think a guy is different from "the others" because they're really all the same.

hopefully there are still exceptions.

Labels: htht

love you like a sister;
1:58 am

Sunday, January 18, 2009

when i'm feeling withdrawn and i push myself not to be, i realise that it is rewarding:) and that love is so generous. and that's what it's meant to be.

i will keep my promise to a friend.

Labels: fuzzy wuzzy

love you like a sister;
6:15 pm

Thursday, January 15, 2009

maybe sometimes i shouldn't be so passive. i shouldn't follow my moods too much? i really don't know. i always do and say what my heart feels. and it seems most of the time i prefer to just be laid back and try not to be occupied with all the stuff going on. and because i follow my heart i tend to end up keeping to myself quite a lot. just trying to find some peace, motivation and to just try so hard to keep myself happy. observant ones saw through it, what's beneath my smiles and all that nonsense i'm so used to talking. i'm surprised, and not in a good way. i don't even know what's going on within me or what's going on in my mind anymore. i kind of am grateful for lessons cos they tune me to be focused at least on something. to think correctly and not be thinking of like almost nothing?! i love talking, so i'm sorry my friends if you have to put up with it. it's my only way of releasing those pent up feelings which i didn't know exist. it's what i do to clear my mind even if what comes out seems like rubbish and it probably is. i'm still trying to understand myself sometimes.

but i'm glad for people who truly care, people who bother to try to see what's behind my facial expressions and words. and for people around to be so understanding and patient with me. i really am glad in that sense. and sometimes you can see who truly cares through the eyes of that person.

Labels: never underestimate the sixth sense of a woman

love you like a sister;
11:37 pm

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

i caught sight of this book sitting on my bookshelf and remembered how it caught my attention back when things were new and unfamiliar. i remember how i used to flip the book from the very beginning and stopped right before this particular section because i didn't think i would have needed or wanted to.

now here i am reading the very sections mentioned. yes those particular sections. this time, i skipped all the previous sections because it has become too familiar.

i can't remember when was the last time i managed to fall asleep peacefully and happily and dream of good stuff and wake up feeling as happy and peaceful as before i slept. i can't even remember when i last had a good sleep without drifting in and out or waking up suddenly. i really really hate it.

Labels: reunited: a two-sided poem

love you like a sister;
8:52 pm

Sunday, January 11, 2009

*edit
random songs with some credits to douya! the first 2 videos can't be found.

Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy

Mad by Ne-Yo

Sorry by Buckcherry

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same

[Pre-Chorus:]
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

[Chorus:]
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue, I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry:

This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry!

[Chorus]

*from night before
even though we've drifted, i hope you know that my love for you is unconditional (even if it sounds damn wrong but it's really what i feel haha) and if anything happens to you i'll be the first to rush there. i mean i may not be the first to actually reach there but i hope you know that i'll always be here and i've always been. and if you choose to seek a shelter in me i would be more than happy.

after all these while, i've found what's good enough for me but i haven't forgotten you so i hope you haven't forgotten me too:) when we get too carried away with our own lives, let's take some time to find each other back ya.

Labels: let's spread some unconditional love yo

love you like a sister;
4:45 am

Thursday, January 08, 2009

everything in the book sounded like something i would have written. i guess i'm not alone haha. and i left something for myself too. it was kind of dumb that everyone else saw it except for me? maybe i was in denial. or maybe i just chose to overlook it.

can the sun please stop hidingggg!

Dipsy green, glitter Tweety Bird yellow and Tom and Jerry's Tom with bling.

love you like a sister;
11:26 pm

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

okay this is damn random but i find this picture very turn on even though the male model doesn't exactly look good to me. haha. so shou's type.

love you like a sister;
11:27 pm

Monday, January 05, 2009

just smile and carry on and appreciate what you have around you. just remember who you are and never lose yourself. just remember those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter.

less than one week left of freedom? let's make the best use of it. wish i could make The Great Escape like Boys Like Girls. and it has been raining so much it's impossible to tan.

and shou said something very true. as you grow older, you get more picky with friends. you don't settle for hi-bye friends, you're looking for friends who can connect with you and walk with you the rest of your life. no wonder i'm starting to find lesser and lesser good friends each time i make a transition. ever since school started last year, i can safely say i've only one friend that i depend on in school. kind of sad huh?

i like the excitement of new friends though:) but i'm like currently not in my best skin to be all out like my usual self. think it's also time to find back some drifted friends.

Labels: i don't wanna be trash

love you like a sister;
4:34 pm

Sunday, January 04, 2009

ignore and avoid. it's a sick repetition. and sometimes i feel like i'm being tested and pushed to the limits. i wonder what's that supposed to be for? doesn't matter i guess, since i'm so sick of it and i've had enough. and i hate it when i'm being like 200% serious and the person i'm talking to takes it as a laughing matter. how rude.

i don't know what's left in your brain seriously. you've changed and i don't recognise you anymore. need i say more?

Labels: transformers maggots in disguise

love you like a sister;
4:00 pm

Saturday, January 03, 2009

it's time for me to walk away. walk away from all of it, all of the shit i've been stuck in. and i know i won't be missed.

love you like a sister;
1:20 am

Friday, January 02, 2009

hello 2009!
i must say 2009 started rather unusual because for the first time in maybe my whole life, i found a dog which was really cute and i actually touched and stroked it and managed to look at it lovingly. huihui has such an adorable dog. his name is Tan Ah Boy. and maybe this is a new start for me that i may overcome my fear of dogs. hopefully. but claudine's dog is still omg scary.

i've found a few new friends that cross over from the end of 2008 thanks to eugene and those from school and i hope 2009 would be a year to meet many many people to find more friends to grow old with:)

and it shall be a year of more hard work to my studies. yes i can do it:)

let's go see the exhibits by the Musuem of Broken Relationships at Esplanade. 8 jan to 18 jan.

love you like a sister;
3:13 pm